Not giving up on love

Everyone has ever been in a relationship where the value of your will is less important than the value of your relationship. Which means there are times when you'll just step out of argument or apologise immediately. Merely because you're afraid of separation. 

The word 'break up' is not the word you say according to your temporary emotion or tiredness. It is the word that come out after days or even weeks trying to fix the wrongs. Yet for both of us, it seems quite easy to say give up. I used to say it everytime we're in a severe fights, back then when things hadn't been meant a lot to me.

But now, I want this relationship to work so badly. Regardless to the fact that we're not a perfect sweet couple. You're far from romantic. Yet we could always create our own romance. People say we're south polar and north polar to each other. Therefore, we'll never ever be happy together. Fuck that. I'll have my ears closed.
Eventhough you barely there when i need you. Eventhough you build a wall around your ego and i could never tear it down. Eventhough you insist not to change any of yourself for me. And Instead, demand me to fit you. For you i will, baby. And i might get lost sometimes. But i'm not giving up on this. No matter how it hurts me sometimes to not getting what i want. I'll give my effort.

What i'm saying is, please don't make me feel like i'll never be good enough for you. I have many flaws but quit pointing it at me. Don't say i never try to understand because even little change takes time.  Stop saying i don't make you happy and don't say we'd better leave each other alone. 

I want to spend my months years and centuries with you.  So please help me at the time i fail to understand you, embrace me and tell me the right way. Please hold my hand while saying you'll patiently teach me and wait till i could love you better. Don't desert me while i'm trying hard to be enough for you.

No I’m never gonna leave you darling

No I’m never gonna go regardless

Everything inside of me is living in your heartbeat

Even when all the lights are fading

Even then if your hope was shaking

I’m here holding on

I will always be yours forever and more

Through the push and the pull

I still drown in your love

And drink 'til I’m drunk

And all that I’ve done,

Is it ever enough

-arttm