Ramadhan This Year

minal aidin wal faidzin. if ever the words that i've written in my blog hurts your feeling, i have no bad intention :) this ramadhan month i'm having a major broken heart and mental breakdown. i almost having every sahur alone. and i didnt spend my idul fitri with dad because of some reasons. but know what readers? you dont know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have.so lets starts with some good things that also happened this month

Breakfasting with my dancers at Coffee Break Cempaka Putih

we called ourself a family :) i miss them especially our dance routine. it has been two months since we're retiring from dancing. and soon i will give my captain position to my junior. but we'll stick together! am i right my girls? ;)

Breakfasting with SMAN 21

 this is my new classmates on 12 science 2. fyi, our class is teacher's most hated science class because we're so chaotic! and guess what, I'm the class leader! yes me. hahaha. it is a whole new experience for me to have such a responsibility like this. but this is fun because i know behind our naughtiness we all here have something to be proud of!

Sahur On the Road SMAN 21 all base

we did sahur on the road, distributed foods to the poor people. i was sitting at the bagage of the car with pamela along the way. we ended our convoy at monas. it was a great night. but the fact that day was my failed 3rd months anniversary kinda ruin my mood a lil bit. 

Breakfasting with the Orphans

 another new experience, sharing with others. it was a hectic day! from morning me and pamela searching for the orphanage house till finally we got it at Jatinegara. And then we went straight to the supermarket to bought them some groceries and then we also ordered the food and gathered our friends from xi ipa 3. soooo tiring! but it was all paid back with the smile of that kids. bravo :p

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