by my side

an innocent lover like him has to deal with me and my high expectations, wasn't easy. but i let him adjust. and apparently he's a fast learner, maybe because he's sincere, i can see it on every effort that he made for me. i love him. i love him from a little thing like saying good morning everyday, brought me a chocolate or just come by to make me feel better when i'm feeling sad, went to school together and sharing his lunch with me, singing along from the radio while he's driving, even playing rock paper scissors with him. everytime he attempt to say something romantic it always sounds funny. i love every wrong thing he does. the way he can keep up with my childish nature. ah i cant stop blabber about how much in love i am with this person.

 two of  favorite gifts from him: smurfette and music box :)

my two former relationship didnt last more than 3 months. so for me, to be able to get through the 4th month with you, is a wonderful journey and i want more. more and more. <3 so this is for you

wahyu ramadhan, the most lovable idiot, i love you!

loving life

well hello everyone :) december has had a pretty good one for me. in fact, June and December have never let me down. early December started with a soccer competition between classes on my school. as the class president, i was excited indeed. we named our class 'Revence' which is stand for " Rebellion of Twelve Science Two" i'm proud to say that the idea of the name came from me haha. So the girls have a duty to be a supporter on every match. it was excruciatingly fun! screaming, shouting, and singing that's all we do from the sidelines. it was pretty easy for our class to finally got into the semi-finals. we prepare a property to support the players. sadly, our excitement on the semifinals didnt lead to victory. we lose the game. that was truly a sad moment. we were crashed down after flying so high. tears came up but we keep moving on the next day and we alhamdulillah got the 3rd place . proud! this is the euforia you might want to join ;)

and more, i also perform with my dancers. it's been a while since the last time we perform. and with only a week preparation, we did a good job anyway! ;)

after the championship is over, my class chose to spend a day at Dufan before the holiday started. FUN FUN FUN XOXO. and i experienced the giant roller coaster for the first time of my life. noted!

the ending of december is also hilarious. i celebrate new year's eve with the lovely people of mine. my dancers (dinda vanda ayu april) and my lover, wahyu. honestly a few unpleasant things have happened a few days before new year. but i do enjoy the last day of 2011. i was hired to be a dancer on Cilandak Town Square with many other dancers from amateur to professional. great experience! it turned out to be more exhausting than i thought before, but seeing the audience, came butterflies on my stomach. i think performing is just really my thing. until finally the countdown to first minute of 2012, my baby held me tight among the crowded. baloon was all over the place. perfect! and to my dancers, i've been through too many incredible moment with them. we're soulmate to each other. 

dear god, you know i cant never thanked you enough for this beautiful life you give to me. but i'll never stop pray for a better me. all hail 2012!

grandma

yesterday, the last day of 2011 i dreamed about grandma. the first time after her death a year ago, this endless grief i can't seem to cope. i finally see her again, in my sleep. she wore a black dress, i remember that dress. she came to our house, and i ran to her. even in my dream i was concious that she has died. i just stood close to her and weeping. while she's saying to me "maaf opung boru pergi terlalu lama" and then i'm awaken. one sentence. i lost a chance to hug her. i yearn her. and realise that the only opportunity to meet her is by dreaming on my sleep, then i would spend the rest of my prayer before sleep, wishing to meet her. and grandma, no matter how long you've gone, i wouldnt spend a day without missing you.