pictures speak better

Since twitter has became my life 24/7. But blog is still my second bestfriend So I'm sharing with you some moment that i had been missing to write in here. Short stories yet the pictures will reveal itself

 

new year! ancol! definitely my best celebration so far. my former new years had always end up on my grandma's house watching television.

 Ayu's birthday surprise! Sky dining with my sweethearts and my boyfie too. The kind of saturday night that i always wanted. Feel completely complete.

 

Nobar AFF with my classmates.That night I cant stop laugh and eat at the same time! Hilarious! Indonesia lose anyway.

 Ini gabisa dijabarkan pake bahasa inggris...Percaya ga ini di Ambulans? Sebetulnya ber 5. Pulang lomba dance kita gapunya uang eh tiba tiba tukang ambulansnya denger dan nawarin bareng sampe tol. Speechless kan?

 The potrait of true science students while everybody else studying in the class LOL

 This is a rough and tired day for the three of us. Delivering our proposal to some companies in Sudirman. I'm part of 21cup (annual event on my school) will post more about it later

 This is me over exciting after my boyfriend (which is so good at painting) draw me a flower

 This is my sweetheart. My life would suck without them! Big fat hugs

No major change unless the fact that i gain 5 kilos from 42kg to 47kg this last 3 months. Which WAS so impossible, i had always been skinny for my whole 16 years life! But i must say i'm happier now. I made a lot of mistakes and life lessons for sure. So suck it up readers! See ya!

i wish you know

i wish you know when we were breaking up i wish you decide to stay. i wish you know when i tell you to go i wish you say that you dont want to lose me. i wish you know i'm so upset everytime you break your promises. i wish you know i'm over excited about you. i wish you know i'm afraid of loving you too much. i wish you know every morning i checked my phone to see if there's any text from you. i wish you know when you dont have credit on your phone you would call me from your friend's phone. i wish you know all my friends asking why they rarely see us together. i wish you know my friends sometimes make fun of you but i always find the best on you to tell them. i wish you know when i call you to accompany me its because i want to be with you not because i want to use your car/money. i wish you know i wish i dont have to spend every saturday night alone while you with your friends. i wish you know i wait for your little surprise everyday.  i wish you know you make me happy.

i wish you know someone new come to my life and giving me so much laugh but it still you i want so badly. i wish you know i stalk your twitter your youtube your facebook your tumblr. i wish you know i hope when i see your social network it show how miserable your life without me, cause i did. i wish you know when you show up in front of my house saying you miss me, i'm the happiest girl alive. i wish you know when you say you still love me i'm crying happily inside my heart. i wish you know you make me feel like a fool and i regret all my stupid selfish mistake. i wish you know i want you back. i wish you know when you say you dont want to disappointed me again i'm hoping you may take the risk. i wish you know when you say you dont want to get in relationship again, i'm hurted. i wish you know i'm afraid you would walk away i'm afraid of losing you. i wish you know i'm sorry for letting you go. 

i wish you know he can be everything that i need but i still thinking of you. i wish you know even  though he gives me everything that you never give to me but my heart still for you. i wish you know i talk about you all the time when i'm with him, i wish you know i cry on the phone with him telling him i miss you. i wish you know i hurt people that love me because you're the one. i wish you know i try to move on. i wish you know when you hung up the phone i spent my night awaken of sadness. i wish you know when you suddenly ignore me, i'm devastated. i wish you know when you text me, i jump on the bed like crazy. i wish you know i re-read your messages everyday. i wish you know i already know you will leave but i dont care.

most of all, i wish you know every people come by to my house i wish its you. i wish you know i cry everytime i smell someone like you. i wish you know i'm sad everytime my boy friends laugh because it sounds like your laugh. i wish you know i miss your drawing on my hand. i wish you know i miss hugging you from the back on motorcycle. i wish you know i miss your face your lips. i wish you know i ponytail my hair everyday because you like it. i wish you know i miss you brushing my hair with your fingers. i wish you know you look handsome. i wish you know i miss hugging your tinny body. i wish you know i miss being mad at you. i wish you know i miss telling you to not smoke too much. i wish you know i miss the smell of cigar on my hand after holding your hand. i wish you know i miss telling you to study. i wish you know i miss hearing your story about your silly friends. i wish you know i miss you.

i wish you know there's no one in this world who could replace you.

sorry for bad grammar, its almost midnight and i feel so vulnerable and these are all on my mind