i wish you know

i wish you know when we were breaking up i wish you decide to stay. i wish you know when i tell you to go i wish you say that you dont want to lose me. i wish you know i'm so upset everytime you break your promises. i wish you know i'm over excited about you. i wish you know i'm afraid of loving you too much. i wish you know every morning i checked my phone to see if there's any text from you. i wish you know when you dont have credit on your phone you would call me from your friend's phone. i wish you know all my friends asking why they rarely see us together. i wish you know my friends sometimes make fun of you but i always find the best on you to tell them. i wish you know when i call you to accompany me its because i want to be with you not because i want to use your car/money. i wish you know i wish i dont have to spend every saturday night alone while you with your friends. i wish you know i wait for your little surprise everyday.  i wish you know you make me happy.

i wish you know someone new come to my life and giving me so much laugh but it still you i want so badly. i wish you know i stalk your twitter your youtube your facebook your tumblr. i wish you know i hope when i see your social network it show how miserable your life without me, cause i did. i wish you know when you show up in front of my house saying you miss me, i'm the happiest girl alive. i wish you know when you say you still love me i'm crying happily inside my heart. i wish you know you make me feel like a fool and i regret all my stupid selfish mistake. i wish you know i want you back. i wish you know when you say you dont want to disappointed me again i'm hoping you may take the risk. i wish you know when you say you dont want to get in relationship again, i'm hurted. i wish you know i'm afraid you would walk away i'm afraid of losing you. i wish you know i'm sorry for letting you go. 

i wish you know he can be everything that i need but i still thinking of you. i wish you know even  though he gives me everything that you never give to me but my heart still for you. i wish you know i talk about you all the time when i'm with him, i wish you know i cry on the phone with him telling him i miss you. i wish you know i hurt people that love me because you're the one. i wish you know i try to move on. i wish you know when you hung up the phone i spent my night awaken of sadness. i wish you know when you suddenly ignore me, i'm devastated. i wish you know when you text me, i jump on the bed like crazy. i wish you know i re-read your messages everyday. i wish you know i already know you will leave but i dont care.

most of all, i wish you know every people come by to my house i wish its you. i wish you know i cry everytime i smell someone like you. i wish you know i'm sad everytime my boy friends laugh because it sounds like your laugh. i wish you know i miss your drawing on my hand. i wish you know i miss hugging you from the back on motorcycle. i wish you know i miss your face your lips. i wish you know i ponytail my hair everyday because you like it. i wish you know i miss you brushing my hair with your fingers. i wish you know you look handsome. i wish you know i miss hugging your tinny body. i wish you know i miss being mad at you. i wish you know i miss telling you to not smoke too much. i wish you know i miss the smell of cigar on my hand after holding your hand. i wish you know i miss telling you to study. i wish you know i miss hearing your story about your silly friends. i wish you know i miss you.

i wish you know there's no one in this world who could replace you.

sorry for bad grammar, its almost midnight and i feel so vulnerable and these are all on my mind